That sounds like a long time from now, but it really isn’t. I have so much to do before now and then, and it’s starting to become really stressful.
I talked with my ex on the phone yesterday and it made me realize how much life is changing and it’s so surreal. He gets out of the military in December, then he’s moving out west to go to school and I’m moving to Connecticut. We will be polar opposite places on America and it’s crazy to think that this is all officially coming to an end for us. I have known for a while now that things were done between us, but he was still holding to hope for us, until recently. We are both at an understanding now that when I see him next month, that will probably be the last time I see him for a long time/ever. It does make me sad, but at the same time I have so much to look forward to with my new life to come. I am not going to let him and my past hold me back from my dreams.
This month is Halloween, next month is my birthday, December is Christmas and New Years and then when January hits, I’m moving.
I have 3 months to work and make as much money as possible. I have three months to pack up my life and drive 700 miles to a life of uncertainty. I have three months to close the chapters on my childhood and start my life with no one to lean on but myself…for the first time in my life, I am counting on myself to find happiness.
I can do this.